So, what gives when you know with your mind that you should be free but on a whole other level you act out your mis-beliefs and actually DO “what you really believe?” I do not claim to be a theologian or some kind of puffed up pontificate that knows the “deal,” yet, I have found that what I believe is what I do. I can not escape this fact, and no matter how much I know “logically” know what “I should do,” it does not change the fact that I have some deep rooted heart beliefs that conflict with my “believing mechanism.” In Romans chapter 7 Paul discusses this dynamic, he called them ” laws that wage war” and there is a little nugget in the middle in verse 18 “…For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out..” Romans 7:18 (ESV) and then in verse 21 it says, “So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand.” Romans 7:21 (ESV) Wow, the things they never taught in Church, so what Paul is saying is that soon as I desire to do “right” evil lies close at hand.” AWESOME, (sarcasm intended) and yet the power struggle is not so much on the outside (what bombards us on a daily basis) as it is on the inside (what I choose to believe). In verse 22 “For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, 23 but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. Romans 7:22-23 (ESV) Paul described two laws or different forces that opposed each other, one that rested in the regenerated man or mind, the other in the natural inclinations of man or carnal mind. Then Paul topped off this chapter with this statement, “Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? 25 Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin.” Romans 7:24-25 (ESV) In conclusion, I am a mess and totally dependent on God and through Christ Jesus I serve God with the regenerated mind. I am constantly aware of my sin, thanks to the Law, but I am free from the penalty because of Jesus. I am not there yet by any means, yet it helps me to write it out so I can see that I can be free and free indeed through Jesus’ truth!
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